I guess I need to clarify this somewhat. I do not think that I am too hard on myself when it comes to my own work. I know what I like and I usually know how to get there - mostly intuitively. Of course, knowing a little about design principles helps. What I am saying is that I always like my first generation of whatever I am doing the most. If I do the same or similar thing after that, it is not as satisfying as doing it the first time. I wonder if it is the newness. It does not matter if it is something I am doing in a workshop. playing at home, or reading about it in a magazine. Is it that I don't really know what I am doing the first time and that leads to more experimentation and creativity? Is it more rote for me after that? That is probably why I don't keep doing the same projects and activities over and over again every year in school. The ones I do again are always a little different.
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I wanted to know if there are other artists out there who do the same thing I do. It seems that whenever I am doing something for the first time or after awhile - that the first one done is always the best. For example, I took the Michael DeMeng workshop this weekend on book shrines. My first book was fantabulous! The second one is "eh!". It does not matter what technique I do or what medium I use. It seems like the first one of several always comes out the best. Is it because I don't know what to expect and don't tweak it more on the second and subsequent tries because I know what is coming? Is there anyone else out there like that or am I just a freak?
I just did 5 matchbook shrines - working on all 5 simultaneously. I know that my subsequent ones will not be as good to me as this first 5. Is it because I have more of an emotional attachment since they are my first ones? There is only one that I really do not like a lot.
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