Chasing Things

I was just sitting here at the computer playing an online game (Chainz 2) after seeing the movie, Premonition, with my dh. I started to wonder about why I feel the need to chase something. Is it in our nature to do so? I am normally not reflective (which makes me really bad at doing Soul Collage stuff), but my mind was just wandering. I have chased something all my life. When I was a child, I chased the perfect thrill and read book after book looking for the perfect story. Do you know how most people can tell you what their favorite book is? I can't tell you that I have a favorite book. I normally don't go back and read books over and over again. I don't have a book that just sticks in my mind. When I was high school, I chased "As" to get into a good college. After college, I chased the money. In my 30's, it was a husband and a family (2nd husband, that is). Now, I am always looking for new techniques, new things in art to try, and for fame and recognition in our art world.


Is it the chase for me? Once I get it, the thrill is gone and I am on to the next thing. I am that way with techniques. Try it, it's over, and on to something else. Do people chase something their entire lives but just don't realize? Is it possible for me to just settle and to exist happily without chasing something? I don't think so. Why am I so driven?


Now, I am going to ponder my fascination with fire.